Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Changes
Recently I was looking at pictures while cleaning out a chest of mine. I had forgotten the feelings associated with the pictures and forgotten the woman who was in those photographs. I sit here now and wonder who she was and what made up her psyche. She looks happy and relaxed, just enjoying an outing with her husband and two little boys. It is hard to believe that was just 9 years ago. So much can change in just a short span of time. Look at a picture of the boy leaning against his father
Here is a picture of the boy leaning against his mother
And finally here is a picture of the mother 9 years later
I still look relaxed and happy, just enjoying an outing with my boys. The truth is that I am not relaxed or happy. I am just posing for the camera trying not to look as fat as I am. I am missing my husband, the person that completed that family picture up top. I am juggling being a mother and father and paying bills with money I don't have yet and am really wishing that I could take a trip back in time where it all did not rest on my shoulders alone. I am resentful of having these burdens placed on me when promises were made for something quite different. I am tired of being a crybaby when people have it much worse out there than I do and upset that I am making myself feel guilty for having resentments. I try to pray for better days ahead and know that it is coming but who really is my husband coming home to. Certainly not the girl he left behind. Will he love me the way he used too, will he still make me feel that I am the only person in the world? I just don't know and I am scared about this. I keep thinking I need reassurances on this, but how would they be given? You can make your mouth say anything but it is the actions that define us. I am working on myself to try and be the person that I think he wants me to be, but is he working on himself. He probably does not need to because time has basically stood still for him. I just don't know.
Puppies
Well our trip to Wal Mart was successful with 4 of the 9 puppies gone. We intend to go back tomorrow and try to get rid of the rest. Wish us luck because we are going to need it.
New Year resolutions
Well...my first attempts to exercise were a bust. I got myself attired in the perfect workout clothes and went to the rec center to begin my New Year exercise plan only to be told that I have to attend orientation first and that is not until Monday. Already there are flies in the ointment, but undaunted I went home and decided the whole family would help me in my efforts. They were less than enthusiastic so once again I retreated to my bedroom. I love my room. I have everything that is good inside those walls. I am swept away by my books and TV. I travel, have passionate romances, and solve intricite crimes that would baffle Agatha Christie. I am a poet and painter and seeker of truth. I am beautiful and thin and people constantly tell me how much they wish they were me. Alas, it was not to be the case on this day. Every ad on TV screamed at me about flat abs and a six pack. Even the heroine in the book I was reading was on a diet so I decided to go to the internet and found something I could bring into my haven.
Tummy Exercises You Can Do in Bed
Bed exercises are a great solution for people who aren't used to working out. People with health and mobility issues could also benefit from these tummy exercises you can do in bed. It's pretty simple. Let's get started.
Tummy Toner #1
Remove your pillow from under your head and place it under your lower back. This extra lift will help you get maximum impact from this tummy exercise. Put your hands at your side, palms down. With your feet together, slowly lift your legs while keeping your ankles touching. Tighten your tummy muscles and breathe in. While you continue to breathe in, slowly spread your legs apart. Count to 5. Bring your legs back together slowly and then slowly bring them down. Start with just 5 and increase by one each day you exercise.
Tummy Toner #2
Remove your pillow from under your head. Stack two pillows at the foot of your bed. Lie flat on the bed with your feet elevated. Cross your arms over your chest. Breathe in deeply as you pull your stomach in towards your back. Breathe out as you lift your upper body towards your feet. The distance you lift up is not important. You'll feel the burn! Breathe in as you lie down again. Relax your muscles then repeat. Do this exercise 5 times and increase by one each day you exercise.
This twisting exercise is also good for love handles! Lie flat on the bed with no pillow support. Stretch out your arms to your side about shoulder length. Keep your arms and shoulders flat on the bed while you roll your head to the right. At the same time lift your right knee to your chest. Breathe
in while you tighten up your stomach muscles. Now, breathe out as you roll your right knee and hip to the floor on your left side. Can you feel the twist? Don't stretch yourself until you hurt! If you can't reach the floor all the way it is all right. Don't hurt yourself by pressing yourself too far too soon. Breathe out as you slowly roll back to the original position returning your knee and leg too. Rest. Then roll your head to the left and do the same exercise on the opposite. Do this exercise on both sides 5 times resting in between. Increase as it becomes easier.
These tummy exercises you can do in bed will get you on your way to be fit in no time.
I actually bought a little rubber ball to use instead of the pillows so we shall see what happens.
Tummy Exercises You Can Do in Bed
Bed exercises are a great solution for people who aren't used to working out. People with health and mobility issues could also benefit from these tummy exercises you can do in bed. It's pretty simple. Let's get started.
Tummy Toner #1
Remove your pillow from under your head and place it under your lower back. This extra lift will help you get maximum impact from this tummy exercise. Put your hands at your side, palms down. With your feet together, slowly lift your legs while keeping your ankles touching. Tighten your tummy muscles and breathe in. While you continue to breathe in, slowly spread your legs apart. Count to 5. Bring your legs back together slowly and then slowly bring them down. Start with just 5 and increase by one each day you exercise.
Tummy Toner #2
Remove your pillow from under your head. Stack two pillows at the foot of your bed. Lie flat on the bed with your feet elevated. Cross your arms over your chest. Breathe in deeply as you pull your stomach in towards your back. Breathe out as you lift your upper body towards your feet. The distance you lift up is not important. You'll feel the burn! Breathe in as you lie down again. Relax your muscles then repeat. Do this exercise 5 times and increase by one each day you exercise.
This twisting exercise is also good for love handles! Lie flat on the bed with no pillow support. Stretch out your arms to your side about shoulder length. Keep your arms and shoulders flat on the bed while you roll your head to the right. At the same time lift your right knee to your chest. Breathe
in while you tighten up your stomach muscles. Now, breathe out as you roll your right knee and hip to the floor on your left side. Can you feel the twist? Don't stretch yourself until you hurt! If you can't reach the floor all the way it is all right. Don't hurt yourself by pressing yourself too far too soon. Breathe out as you slowly roll back to the original position returning your knee and leg too. Rest. Then roll your head to the left and do the same exercise on the opposite. Do this exercise on both sides 5 times resting in between. Increase as it becomes easier.
These tummy exercises you can do in bed will get you on your way to be fit in no time.
I actually bought a little rubber ball to use instead of the pillows so we shall see what happens.
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